End of 2nd Pregnancy Diary : Late Miscarriage at Week 14

Reason to post this is all because I wanted to educate all the mommies to be or maybe any pregnant ladies out there. Not much people will share their heart breaking stories on this platform due to grieving or answering question from anyone. Most of them choose to be quite and let the pain heal by its own. Because of lack of information, I have lost my 14 week old child.

I will always compare it with my previous pregnancies. The previous pregnancy was very very very good. Im able to drive to work, 45 minute a day, 6 days a week and i have no complication at all.

This is not the story. During this pregnancy, im resting most of the tome at home, sometimes ill drive back to my dad's home. That's all. Nothing hectic and will affect the pregnancies. Checking up with the gynie on time and never skipped anything.

What to say, god only lend the baby for me for 97 days and god choose to love him more.

Just surrender.

At 14 week old, the baby already enter the 2nd trimester, which mean they already pass the dangerous zone and seldom people will get a miscarriage at the 2nd trimester. Most of it will happens at the 1st trimester. If it happens after the 1st trimester, it means ''late miscarriage'' which occur at the 12 to 24 week.

Below here is my whole experience of late miscarriage at week 14.

6th December 2015 ( Sunday )

A very challenging day for us. It all started with a weird vaginal discharge of mine.

4th December 2015 ( Friday ) Morning

After the second I get up from my bed, i have a funny feeling that something is leaking out down there. Went to the toilet, grab a tissue and I'm like pushing a bit and there's a squirt of yellowish, brownish with a little of blood strand. 

As the doctor said previously, the polyp will burst and it will bleed. The bleeding is not much and most of it probably will take 1 to 3 days to clear.

I thought it was the polyp burst, so I just leave it and not going to the doctor on that day because I don't feel any weird feeling's such as pain or sore.

5th December 2015 ( Saturday )

The discharge is still there, not as much as yesterday but it started to have some funny smell and i thought it was normal, because during end of a menstrual cycle, we will have some dark blood with some funny smells. Due to the quantity of the discharge is getting lesser, and i think it was normal, so I just leave it.

Evening

After dinner, somewhere around 9pm, im discussing with my husband, do i really really really need to seek for doctor advice? My husband said, just go, don't care about money & time, your & the baby health is the most important. Anyway, my husband think that the weird discharge probably is ''pus'' (nanah in malay) so he think that is quite serious.

We manage to arrive to Sime Darby Park City Medical Center Emergency department at 10.45pm and Dr Chan was on duty that night.

1st, she is doing an ultrasound on me and happily the baby is moving very active. The little hand and feet is wiggling. Me and husband are very happy at that time after knowing the baby is doing alright. The doctor said to me with a smiling face ''the baby can herd both your sound, so the baby is wiggling inside =)'' and the position of the baby is already in place. The head is down, lying on the back and the little feet is at the upper right part of my uterus.

While im still resting on the bed, the doctor on duty is calling my gynie, Dr Goh and ask her what do she need to do or give to me. During their conversation, I herd that Dr Chan is telling Dr Goh that im a very good patient, knowing that im having a polyps and the chance of the polyp might burst and bleed. The doctor has give me an conclusion that the blood / mucus are probably from the polyp. No big deal, baby is healthy and she will give me a jab of [ Proluton Depot Amp 250mg/ml ] on my thigh and an start an antibiotic treatment by pushing [ Fluomizin ] into my vagina every night for 6 night.

I got the jab, paid the bills, got the medicine and went home. Arrive home at 12am.

6th December 2015 ( Sunday ) Midnight

Once i reached home, i went to the toilet and instantly inserted the tablet into my vagina and took a bed rest since I'm putting  my 3yo to sleep.

12.45am

My tummy is growling, twisting and very pain. I thought it was diarrhea so i went to the toilet and try to push out some stool. Ended only a little lump of stool came out but the pain is still there and it is getting worst and worst. I manage to come out after the pain has gone for awhile, lye down on the bed and rest a bit. After like 3 minutes, the pain is back and im going back to the toilet again. This time i feel weird. maybe is not the pain for diarrhea so i asked my husband to bring me back to the hospital.

While walking out from my room to the entrance of my door, the pain hits back, i squatted then i realize that my amniotic sack is broken and a lot water gushes out down there.

I finally know, the pain that i thought it was passing stool or diarrhea is contraction pain for labour.

Mr husband is panic, same as my father and sister. Mr husband asked my dad to call the hospital to get us an ambulance, but i think that is not necessary. I already know that once the amniotic sac or water is broken, there's no more way to safe the baby. I calmed everyone down, took a blanket to prevent from making my husband car dirty and ask my husband drive me to the hospital which is just 3 minutes away from my home.

Once arrive to the hospital, the nurses there still recognize me because i just left the hospital for 1 hour+. They immediately ask me to lye down and i know everything will be bad.

My dad are waiting me at the waiting area while my husband is accompanying me to the emergency room.

Once im in the room, They poke an iv line on my left hand, squeezing, pushing, pulling just to draw some blood out for some lab test. I was very very in pain and i have no strength to see or watch what are they doing to me.The contraction is so so bad. a single contraction lasted for almost 10 minute and stop for 5 minute then the contraction started again. I was very in pain and tears keep falling out and this made my husband super worried and panic.

The emergency doctor in charge call my Gynie immediately and she told her that the baby is already not in my womb. She cant trace the baby with the ultrasound machine and my Gynie rushes to the hospital immediately and finally she arrived like in 15 minutes.

Once she arrives, she scan me with the ultrasound machine and she cant found the baby. She asked the nurses on duty to bring her a speculum and she inserted into me. She told me that is not good. The baby is already came out and now stuck in between your uterus and vagina. The baby is at your vagina while the placenta is still left in your uterus. This is why im having a super bad contraction since i was at home.

I've ask the doctor, how long will it take for the whole thing to come out from me? She said it wouldn't have any specific time, some of it uses several hours, maybe half day or maybe a few days. It depends on the body itself.

Doctor is ordering some pain killers for me while she is admitting me into the hospital. A strong contraction kicks in again, this time i notice something huge coming out from my vagina and there's a lot water or blood flowing out as well. I have no time to take the pain killers.

All the nurses and Dr Goh rushes into my room and clean me up. Digging, pushing, or so whatever. I have no more strength to ask what are they doing to me. I'm exhausted, in pain and i can never describe how sad and how bad my mood was that moment.

After awhile, Dr Goh told me that she is pretty confidant that most of the stuff already came out and there is no need to do D&C on me. She prepare me 2 dose of Cytotec ( an oral tablet ) which will made our uterus contract and squeezes out those remaining tissue in our body.

I was admitted to the hospital for 2 nights for observation and im getting discharged on Monday afternoon ( 7 December 2015 )


10th December 2015 ( Thursday )

After ive been discharged from the hospital, i dont feel any cramping or pain. Theres only red fresh blood and the quantity is not much ( wont soak a whole regular pads a day ).

3pm

I notice theres a little cramp, just very light , like menstrual cramp at my right side of my lower abdoment. I thinks that normal, because the doctor told me so. Its a symptom of recovery.

But please do find the doctor if you soaked a pad in just several hours.

I have not yet soak the whole pad and ill just let it be.

11th December 2015 ( Friday ) Selangor Sultan Birthday ( Public Holiday )

The cramp is still there. Mr husband keep asking me weather do i need to go to the hospital? I keep saying no because the pain is still bareable and theres not many blood seen.

5pm

I got a very bad pain and suddenly i passed out a clump of tissue. After the tissue is passed out, i notice that i already get my pad soaked fully in just 3 hours.

I called my husband, he was at a wedding party that moment, rushes back and bring me to the hospital. At the same moment, no one is taking care of my 3yo so we needed to bring her along to the hospital.

11pm

Arrived to the hospital. The staff there seems to still recognize me and they guided me into the emergency room and had me rest there.

Some nurses came to understand my situation then they passed it to the doctor on call that night. A malay male doctor came and talk to me. He seems not so familiar with this case so he called my Gynie, Dr Goh.

Dr Goh decided to come and treat me by her own so she decided to travel from her home to the hospital. She asked the nurses ready so stuff so she can straightly give me a check once she arrived.

Dr Goh arrived after 20 minutes and the 1st thing she so was to ultrasound my uterus. She found out there was still some tissue left inside my uterus. The size was 1cm+.

She inserted speculum inside me and have a check down there. My cervic is still slightly open and there's some blood clot inside, Dr Goh uses some utensils to dig and clean up some of the remaining tissue inside there. Without any pain killers, i was very uncomfortable there. Feels like someone digging inside me.

After all the digging and cleaning, there was quite a lot blood started to flow out from my vagina. I had asked the doctor weather is common or not. The doctor said it was normal and hopefully the tissue will passed out by it own so there's no need to do D&C which will harm out uterus.

From her experience, she do think D&C is the better way now because if the clot don't come out by its own, ill have an infection and she don't want that to happen.

She give me 2 choices. Either to do D&C immediately or to take Cytotec again.

If i choose to do the D&C, i will need to admitted to the hospital immediately. I cant do do because there's no one to take care my 3yo.

Dr Goh give me a suggestion. She asked me to try to take Cytotec, see weather the medication will help me to passed out the remaining tissue. Take it at 12am and another dose at 7am. Get someone to take care my daughter and come back to the hospital at 8.30am the next day to see weather the tissue already passed out or not. If the tissue is not out yet, then we will do the D&C on the day.

Dr Goh is very considerate. I like the way she gives me some solution while im a bit lost there. I have decided to take the cytotec and come back to her the next morning while i have my sister and dad to help me look after my daughter so my and my husband can go to the hospital at morning and worst case, to do D&C at that day as well.

Arrived home, cytotec taken, but my body seems like not reacting to cytotec. I have no strong cramping and i have no passes any tissue out from my body. I have a very strong instinct that definitely ill have to do the D&C.

12 December 2015 - Saturday

8.45am

Time has arrived, all has been arranged and the doc has called. Time for a scan at the hospital and decided what to do on the current day.

Arrived to the hospital, cut all the que and meet the doctor. The 1st thing Dr Goh asked me is :
''do you passed out any thing last night?''
I said ''No, there's no ant effect after eating the medicine, no bad cramping etc etc''
Dr Goh said, ''Then probably we will need to do the D&C today''

9.30am

Get all ready, change into operation robe, got iv line poked, and pushed into the operating theater.

Got an injection, after 2 or 3 minute, im black out.

11.30am

I'm finally awake and the surgery is done. I don't remember anything till the moment im blacked out.

12.30pm

Discharged and everything is very fine. No bad bleeding ( only a small patch every day, 1 pantyliner is enough for 1 day )

23 December 2015 - Tuesday

It has been 11 days after the D&C. Till now im feeling very fine and the blood stain is getting lesser and lesser. If i have the chance to turn back the time, i would like to have the D&C done by the 1st day of my miscarriage.

Dear friends & readers, please do not compare any pregnancies. I notice that every pregnancies is very different and please do not take it so easy, Anything will happen and no one wanted this to happen. Take good care and i shall write about it again.

~Cya~~

Betrayal Of A Husband To His WIfe [ PART 2 ] Prostitution

Continue ~

1ST ENCOUNTER OF BETRAYAL

2 years after the birth of their beautiful daughter, its being suspicious that the man always came home late and he was always telling his wife that he is very stress, do need to go to the night club to have some beer. By that time, they are living in the hotel quarters, just below the hotel. The night club was just located above their quarters room. The lady feels something strange is happening because there's a time where his husband is not coming back to sleep, he only do come back in the morning.

There come a day, the man didn't go home and didn't inform the lady where he goes after work. She is worried and she went to his working place and look for her husband. The manager came ald told the lady that her husband already back from work. So the next stop is to the night club that he often goes after work.Guess what she saw. She saw her husband was sitting in a corner with a lady, touching, kissing and so so on. She was so pissed off and went back to the quarters and sleep. She silently look for the information of the female that sits with his husband the previous night. The lady was working with the night club as a prostitute. Its quite easy to seek for information of the prostitute because the prostitute was working for the same boss her husband is.So in a short period of time, the Indian lady has known where the prostitute live.

On one particular day, the husband didn't came home right after he has punch out from work. The Indian lady was pissed off and she went to the prostitute house straight away and she saw her husband was there with the prostitute. She dint says a word, slams the door and leave, while carrying their 2 year old daughter. The husband faster follow his wife back and no one will expect this to happen. He slaps and hit the indian lady and said ''you had made me shame infront of her, how can you do this?'' **[by that period of time, there are very less woman will come out and speak for them self because they think this is karma and disrespectful for their husband]** she just cried and helpless.

On one evening, the prostitute came to the lady quarters and shove the insian lady an empty cheque. The prostitute says ''let go of your husband, take the money and leave with your daughter'' then the indian lady refuse and shout to the prostute ''get lost from my sight and leave this place now!''

She is very stress and do think of jump from the hotel building, but she does think of her 2 year old children, whos gonna take care her when shes gone. So she stop her tough of die-ing for tempory of time.

The indian lady told me that she faces with the prostitute is more than 3 times. At one moment, she really cant take it anymore, the indian lady decided to give her sister a call and ask her sister to take care of her daughter when shes not around. Her sister feels something is going wrong there and she rushed to the quarters that they live. The indian lady was drinking few bottle of poison and she was passed out by the time her sister arrived to their place.

The sister is worried and scared, dosnt know what to do and the 1st thing came to her mind is their mother.SEEK HELP FROM THEIR MOTHER. The sister carried her down stairs, another good hearted woman is helping her by carrying the indian lady 2 years old daughter. They took taxi to their mother house. The indian ladys mom is force feeding her herbs and made her vomit.In a short time, the indoan lady was vomiting black substance and she was save and awake.

The encounter does end when the chinese man whole family is moved back to Kuala Lumpur and stay with the chinese man's brother and family. She also has been bullied back then from her sister in law. She do need to do all the house works, cook, taking care of others people children and no salary given. She also do think tis maybe karma from her pass life. So she disint complain and just do her job.

To Be Continue ~~

Worst car workshop

Last Thursday, the moment we came back from Penang, my car broke down nearby the junction near my dad house.[thanks god]

Once the car broke down, my husband called his company foreman and the foreman said maybe is the sensor spoil, no need to call for towing service. just let a nearby shop to repair the car. So then, i contacted my Ex Boss brother [MR D] ...He sent a senior foreman to look on the car. Our car was parked at SK Taman Kosas entrance and the foreman is driving a motorbike to my site.

Once he checked, he said he need to go back to his office to bring the computer and plug in to my car to further check is there something wrong. He went back and arrive again in 5 minute due to his workshop is very near.

He plug the wire into my car and scroll and scroll, press and click. then he said he already reset something and the car can move again, but only in short distance. He ask us to drive the car to his workshop to further check whats wrong.

Once i arrive to his factory, his boss [MR D] said the car need to stay and he pass me a Wira to temporary use. I asked him, how long will it take to get back my car? and he said probably by tomorrow. Ok fine, then ill drive his car back to Kepong and back to Ampang tomorrow noon.

The next day, i called him before i back to Ampang, he said the car should be ok by today noon. Ok, Then i drive back to Ampang, arrive his shop by 4pm. Guess what he said? he said, he just get the spare part, need time to dismantle & install a new 1, need to test drive summore, today cannot done !
OMG what you have said ! I got a toddler with me, driving up n down Ampang, Kepong, Ampang, Kepong. Each trip take 45 minute. very tired and stress d leh. cannot siap then dont say lah !!!!

Never mind, think positive, im going back to Kepong and back to Ampang the following day. But before that, my husband ald called him, double conform him weather the can conform can get done by today or not and also what is the price and what had he changed?!

He didn't said how much it cost and also keep changing topic, said to my husband that the price is not an issue, the most important is the problem is solved, money we can talk later on. and he keep asking my husband, this leak, that leak, this spoil, that spoil, need to change? and my husband already repeated many times, just make the car move, just change the specific thing only, no other thing. Then he said ok ok ok, understand.Then the MR D called me again, ask me ''need change this change that not? will affect the car performance, i told him, this car is company car, not personal car, need to bring back to my company workshop to check again d, so no need waste so many time and money. then he said ok.

By 540pm, i went to my husband office with the Wira and fetch my husband together to the workshop, scare the car broke down at the middle of the road when there's only me and my daughter in the car. Arrive the workshop at 630pm. MR D is not around and i go into the paying counter, saw the bill WTF.... RM 1,915.00 @@ included RM 300 Service labor.

The Bill

The stuff that cost us almost 2k

What have you change ! you never call and ask us weather we agree to change the thing and also didnt wanna us to know the price. What a shady boss.

After that, we asked our own foreman, this thing will only cost us below 1k. Called the boss and complain to him regarding the super expensive bill and we ask for further explanation, he said to us, he used item from an ori car, so the price that they take is much more expensive than the recon one, ask him talk to us face to face and guess what, he said he was at JB but his staff just told me he went out 30 minute ago. [ can fly so fast? 2 hours can arrive JB ] and he said will give my husband a much more better explanation tomorrow and he will double check the bill again, he said the bill is not issued by him, maybe there's a mistake. [i know you for 3 years, i know your writing ok ! ]

Good morning, its Sunday. got the MR D call, he said the bill has no mistake, he willing to give us some discounts, guess how much ? RM 100.00 only, OMG you better dont give la, wanna give then so kedekut summore.haisszzz

Damn, lesson learned.No next time, I know you for so long, didn't expect you will potong us like this. I swear, i wont go back to your shop every again.

Dear friend, the above shop is located at Ampang Waterfront 2.